I SAY YOUR NAME IN THE DARK AND
YOUR NAME IS AMERICAN MONSTER

What I fear most is my relief that I am probably the one
who is missing or is unidentified – what are my tattoos, my strange
dentition? In my animal heart I am called your Birdie, your Bunny, your Piglet. Never
Regretfully Yours. We get big on dreams of decay and what we will do at the end.
I smile with crooked teeth glowing THE BIG ONE is so stupid
when it’s a bomb not a concept. Then it fills my head withsteel wool on fire.
And you agree that it could also be an earthquake or a microbe but mostly
terrorism is also a semi-automatic and what we talk about when we talk about dreams and survival is a place
equidistant from resupply and the lonely pines. Dole fruit canned in heavy
syrup and a minimal source of protein. Would we eat the dog? No, neither
the dead. What is the American monster she is a girl with her head on fire.
I am driving to Omaha but using my card so you can find me. I will not
go to Oregon because of the coming tsunami. Seven-hour waveto Fukushima.
I will not go to New York or L.A. or Texas because of the wall. Put your hand on me
in a Motel 6 I make an offering. I am just a hole, my mouth is a hole andthe blood
off my thigh drips into a great black hole. But honestly, what I wantright now
is a piece of cake. To be everything to obliterate. Right now, I want tofuck a country,
and I can. To be me, to do just that, even only as an animal. YOURS.